Letting My Test Grow Into a Testimony!

Okay, I certainly wanted to try and write this one out

as God is teaching me

I want to share His truths.

Many times, as life closes in,

we tend to just focus on what is happening in front of us.

But our God is so much bigger!

I don't know about each of you - 
but when I am going "through" something
I tend to get a huge case of tunnel vision.

*sigh*

You all know this feeling.
All you can see is the trial in front of you.
Nothing else seems to exist.

Not in your life-
and certainly not in the life of anyone around you.

All I can see when I'm in these moment is the 
difficulties
obsticals
darkness
hurdles
doom
gloom...

Up ahead always looks dark.

And while I know there IS an end to the tunnel-
I don't feel like it will ever end.
 
And that is where I sit.

At times - almost paralized
not by fear
but by the overwhelming feelings that flood my heart.
Not knowing how I'm going to make it through.

It is now that I sit in this moment
deciding to look to Him rather than look down my looming tunnel.

Because, you see, I know Who has my back.
I know Who has my future and the future of the people that I love.

I. know.

These are the "rubber meets the road" spiritual moments in our walk.
Do we trust our feelings?
Do we give way to our fears?
Do we let the things in front of us weigh down our hearts?

The road is tough.
Such is the way our testimony is paved.

Rough,
Testimony-building,
Spiritual-growing,
Time on our knees, 
Faith-increasing, 
Tough times.

I am learning the testimony
that He is growing in me
is not only in the final outcome or a nicely-wrapped praise report.

It is in how He supports me and grows me through the trial.
It is in how He sustains me when everything in me wants to give up.
It is in how He protects me from viewing the situation with worldly eyes.

I am learning, Lord!

Help me to let my test itself be the testimony.