Adoption Day - x 2!

Yes, you read it right...

We had TWO amazing adoption days over here!

Our awe-inspiring God never ceases to amaze me

and blessed us beyond compare

by allowing us to become

a forever family for two of our treasures.

And although pictures don't show all the chaos

that insued over a two-day period,

they certainly give you a glimpse!

Waiting to be called up for Madelyn's court time...

In the courtroom

Picture with the judge after it is final!

Post-adoption picture with all of Maddy's workers

(Her law-guardian, Allelie - Her caseworker, Trish - 

Our Harvest of Hope worker, Sherrie)

Waiting for Gariella's court time with her sister, Saige!

I'm waiting, but not sure for what... :o)

 

Gabi's post-adoption picture with the same judge!

  

 Our adoption celebration at the Atlantic City Aquarium

 

 Waiting for service to start with our church family.

We could not be more blessed!

We loved celebrating adoption with all who came

and pray that hearts and homes will be opened

to see Jesus' heart for the orphan.

(I will give some really amazing testimonies from the days in another post!)

 

James 1:27

External religious worship [religion as it is expressed in outward acts] that is pure and unblemished in the sight of God the Father is this: to visit and help and care for the orphans and widows in their affliction and need, and to keep oneself unspotted and uncontaminated from the world.

   

The Road Not Taken...

Lately, I have been quite introspective...

Looking at what I have become

Looking where I need to grow

Looking at priorities.

Quite melancholy - 

and anyone who knows me 

knows this is not me.

Maybe it's the stress level

of all the responsibilities...

Maybe it's all the emotions

surrounding the closeness

(I can almost taste it!)

of two of our treasure's adoptions...

I don't really know.

But this level-headed gal is very emotional these days.

I'm even hearing whisperings of my mother

who loved literature and all the fine arts.

 (Well technically it is Robert Frost in my head)

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

I always loved the poem

as it speaks the truth about our decisions.

Decisions that we make everyday

big and small

That lead to who we are and where we are.

This makes me pause.

Am I making the daily decisions as I stand at the two roads in the wood?

Am I choosing the road less traveled?

Am I looking back and wondering "what if...?" I had taken the other road?

Am I honestly praying before I make these decisions?

Am I letting them be made for me?

Are they being made with selfish desires or with God on my mind?

The less traveled road.

I am having that time in my world

when I look around and see everyone just hustling about. 

Let's face it  - the busy-ness is just going to get worse.

Maybe, just maybe - 
we are called to a different life.
A life of giving - not out of our excess
but out of our need.

Maybe we are called to serve - 
not out of our spare time,
but selflessly giving time that we don't have.

Maybe :o)

And yes, out here on the less traveled road can get lonely.
But even at the end of the day, I am so blessed to be here.
Serving, giving, learning, growing-

All for His glory!

Yes, God Will Give You More Than You Can Handle...

I know if you are anything like me you have cried out to God,

"I can't handle this anymore!  I don't know what to do!  I can't handle this!"

Right?

C'mon...admit it.

We all have.

When life becomes overwhelming, 

everything feels like it is crumbling beneath our feet, 

and our world feels like it is falling apart.

Yup.  Just like that.

It seems as if someone during these times always spouts out that tired old saying...

"God won't give you more than you can handle.."

And yes, even this mild, sweet, mama wants to reach up

and punch them in the face.

 

That phrase always always feels like rubbing glass in a wound-

it certainly isn't a comfort. 

It feels like I am not measuring up.

It causes me to ask
"If I am supposed to handle this, then why can't I handle it?"

The truth is, dear ones,

that God never said He wouldn't give us more than we can handle.

If we can handle anything that comes our way, then why do we need God at all?

We need to realize that sometimes we can't make it on our own.

Soooooo... just where did that tired, old phrase come from?

Why do so many well-meaning Christians spout it out?

The verse that they are "hinting" at is 1 Corinthians 10:13.

 "No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; 
but God is faithful, 
who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, 
but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, 
that you may be able to bear it."

Let's be clear here.

Paul was referring to temptation, not suffering.

 Paul points out that God will never let us be tempted beyond what we are able

because He always provides us a way OUT of temptation.

When we become aware that life will give us more than we can handle

and come to grips with this,

we find a promise:

God is faithful to meet us in the mess and in the pain. 

And yes, when He meets us there in the sorrow and despair, 

we learn to recognize our constant need to depend on Him.

We can then see that we can rest in the reality that we cannot handle it,

but our Heavenly Father can.

Period.

He. is. able.

And maybe, just maybe...

it is during these times we are called to be His hands

and reach out and walk with those going through life's trials.

It is time to get real -

with ourselves,

with our brothers and sisters in Christ,

and even real with God.

We CANNOT do it alone

and we were never expected to.

Which is why He gave us each other!

I Have Not Forgotten You....

Ok - 

Now I know I have been "missing"

but y'all have no idea what has been happening!

Two weeks after we FINALLY brought our precious Abi home

My husband ended up in the hospital with an exacerbation of his bone disorder

a week later and he still wasn't healing and he ended up in emergency surgery.

Now WHILE he was in surgery (yes, at the SAME TIME)

My dear daughter was making her bed 

and fell off her top bunk and

BROKE HER FOOT

So there I am!  Mom of 6 (at home)

(One of which with severe special needs who we are still adjusting to)

and I am going "solo" with two more to take care of!

So - in the midst of the laundry... 

and the cooking...

 and the cleaning...

 and work...

this mama just hasn't had time to journal!

 

BUT....

 

I am tucking away some amazing things that God is doing

and I am looking forward to sharing!

 

   

But God....!

I will let you all in on a little secret...

in our home - these are our two favorite words.

We quote them often - reminding each other that God shows up

when everyone and everything around us seems to have given up.

That, my dear friends, has been the cause of my elongated absence.

The "but God" of this season is our greatest gift 

and our greatest challenge.

Meet Abigail Grace!

Doctors once held her life in their hands...

they decided *twice* that they were going to turn off her life support 

BUT GOD

moved on the hearts of those involved in her care to keep trying.

Doctors declared that there was so much neurological damage that she would 

NEVER breathe on her own...

BUT GOD

declares He is the author of each of our breaths and intervened!

Doctors said she was going to be blind...

BUT GOD

makes the blind to see and this precious one was given sight!

The audiologist said that although she had "functional hearing" she would NEVER 

be able to speak because of the neuro damage...

BUT GOD

opened up her understanding and this precious one can say
"hi!", "uh-oh!", "more", "all done" and more

(and by the way she can sing the WHOLE song to "Itsy Bitsy Spider" and more!

The speech therapists told us that children with her condition rarely are able to ever eat orally and she would have her g-tube her whole life...

BUT GOD

always has the final say - 

and our precious treasure is now EATING baby food 2-3 times a day!

 So - to all of you that may think something may NEVER happen....

just remember our two favorite words....

 

 BUT GOD!!!

 

In Over My Head

This month has been flying at a furious pace

as we are preparing to bring Gabi's sister

into our home.

This is

BY FAR

the toughest thing that God has called us to.

He has brought me to the edge of my comfort zone

and flown straight past comfort into

"I have no idea how I can do this on my own"

So many times I feel like I am in over my head

and I just want to shout 

ENOUGH!

and declare that this is past me.

But God in His infinite grace

keeps gently reminding me

that it is not about me.

And a resounding voice comes from deep inside me

that heard a quote that read...

"There are a million reasons for me not to do this

and all those reasons have to do with me." 

*gulp*

The true fact is that Jesus wants to bring us all to that point -

where we cannot take another breath without Him - 

past the point that we can say "I can do it by myself"

and straight into the deep deep waters of faith

that makes our soul cry out

"I can't make it another second without you, Lord!"

Past the point of comfort...

past the point of complacency...

 past the point of self-reliance...

into the arms of our loving Savior who

has so much more to offer us

than what we can get in our own power.

oh, so much more!

So I continue to step out in faith-

Yes -scared

Yes -overwhelmed

Yes -unqualified

but He isn't.

Not one little bit.

 

He knows my situation and the sacrifice He has called me to.

And He has promised to provide.

So stepping out

releasing my own self-doubt

following Him into the calling...

and placing myself

in deep

over my head!

The Changing of a Name

I honestly have been amazed at how strongly

some people have reacted when we share

that we are intending on changing the children's names

when they become legally ours.

So much reaction that I took it to prayer.

I certainly didn't want to "rob them of their identity" 

as some had suggested.

Many also claimed that it would cause confusion...

since they already knew their name.

But God showed me something completely unexpected.

HE made over 10 name changes in the Bible!

Abram to Abraham

Jacob to Israel

Sarai to Sarah

Saul to Paul

just to name a few...

Also several men of God (including Moses)

instigated a name change for another person.

Wow~

Why would God change names?

These were adults - who surely knew their names :o)

 What was He telling us?

What did this signify?

Through study and prayer

He began to show me the significance of these changes

and how through the name changes, 

God was expressing a new identity that He wanted them to embody.

So as I look forward to the family that He is bringing to us

and specifically the ones that He is planting in our family

to be forever ours

 We see it as a "shedding off" of what was

and a "taking up" of the promises of God 

that He has given to them for their lives.

"Therefore if any person is [ingrafted] in Christ (the Messiah) he is a new creation (a new creature altogether); the old [previous moral and spiritual condition] has passed away. Behold, the fresh and new has come!"  2 Corinthians 5:17(AMP)

So -

while some may still disagree...

I am at complete peace as God rewrites our family

and directs us to rename the newest blessings!

^"For in Him we live and move and have our being; 

as even some of your [own] poets have said, For we are also His offspring."

Acts 17:28 (AMP)

 

Just Pinch Me!

We are beyond words around here.

And for me, well...

that just isn't the norm!

After hurdle upon hurdle

and delay upon delay

and rescheduling

and sitting and waiting...

We FINALLY had the court day

that we have been waiting for.

(well, not the official last one...) 

Last Monday we were asked to go to court

(after showing up the week before to find out the jail

had messed up and not transferred the father).

We were told that the father was prepared to surrender 

his rights to the girls!

We sat for HOURS
(ironically God used those hours to teach me
as the grandmother who had been so hurtful and cruel
sat with us :o/ 
and talked endlessly)

The time finally came
and we were ushered into the courtroom
to hear those words that we have been longing for.

But as I sat, He also opened my eyes
in a whole new way.

I am grateful (?) somehow for this whole 
long, miserable, heart-wrenching process.

Loving Father - always using our situations to grow us...
and grow our faith.

 
The following day was the trial to sever the mother's parental rights
(she is still a fugitive and never served her sentence)
and yes, 
God used this opportunity again to teach us how to wait...
IN HIM.

But wait we did - 
and we finally got THAT call.

The girls are legally free!

Mighty God.
Making a way.
Protecting His children.

We are in awe of this privilege!

So dear friends - 
we are officially on our first 

ADOPTION JOURNEY!...

and prayerfully by mid-June
our first little princess will be ours forever!

To Him be the glory and honor and praise!