In Over My Head

This month has been flying at a furious pace

as we are preparing to bring Gabi's sister

into our home.

This is

BY FAR

the toughest thing that God has called us to.

He has brought me to the edge of my comfort zone

and flown straight past comfort into

"I have no idea how I can do this on my own"

So many times I feel like I am in over my head

and I just want to shout 

ENOUGH!

and declare that this is past me.

But God in His infinite grace

keeps gently reminding me

that it is not about me.

And a resounding voice comes from deep inside me

that heard a quote that read...

"There are a million reasons for me not to do this

and all those reasons have to do with me." 

*gulp*

The true fact is that Jesus wants to bring us all to that point -

where we cannot take another breath without Him - 

past the point that we can say "I can do it by myself"

and straight into the deep deep waters of faith

that makes our soul cry out

"I can't make it another second without you, Lord!"

Past the point of comfort...

past the point of complacency...

 past the point of self-reliance...

into the arms of our loving Savior who

has so much more to offer us

than what we can get in our own power.

oh, so much more!

So I continue to step out in faith-

Yes -scared

Yes -overwhelmed

Yes -unqualified

but He isn't.

Not one little bit.

 

He knows my situation and the sacrifice He has called me to.

And He has promised to provide.

So stepping out

releasing my own self-doubt

following Him into the calling...

and placing myself

in deep

over my head!