The Next Hurdle...

Each step that God brings us to

gives me more and more hope that our time

to call her "ours" is coming closer.

So as we tread through these difficult days

we praise Him for every little hurdle.

COURT

Yes- that word.

again.

*sigh*

We have been down there so many times now

we have a favorite parking spot

know the timing of the drive

know exactly where to go

and know where we "usually" go to grab lunch.

It has become way too familiar.

 But has been worth every mile.

This coming Tuesday is one of the next major steps.

As complicated as it might seem - 

Amara's father of record

(even though the DNA test showed that he was Aiyana's

father and not Amara's... yes, twin half-sisters...!)

has asked to meet with us.

From what we are told, 

he wants to meet us to make sure

his girls will be loved and cared for.

No problem!

But as I meditated about the day

I found some ugliness in my heart

in regards to this father.

Funny how He uses these moments...

:o)

I found myself resentful of this father

who beat and shook these girls within an inch of their lives

and now wanted a say in their care to make sure

that they were loved and cared for.

I know it is justified for me to resent him.

But we are called in Christ to a higher stance.

So - pray for me that I would grow through this process

and that He would teach me to love as He loves.

Even the unlovable.

Even the abusive.

Even the untrustowrthy.

Even those that don't deserve His love.

Just like I don't deserve it.

But He offers it just the same.

Now that God has shown me my heart in this matter

He has challenged me to pray for these parents

for their healing in Him.

Please join me in prayer that this father does the right thing

and surrender the girls to us.

Pray for grace and favor to follow us through yet another court day.

He alone will receive all the glory and praise!

    

 

Praising Him for Our Breakthrough!

Since these postings and musings and reflections here 

are really for me~

(and I just let you guys peek!)

 I didn't want to let this breakthrough go by

without giving Him every praise I had!

So here goes...

Once upon a time...

:o)

God saw one of His precious treasures 

(well actually two)

not being treated like the princess she was.

And He was saddened.  Deeply.

But being the best Daddy in the world

He protected her and got her help...

all the while preparing the home 

where she was going to go to be safe.

(we were actually licensed within weeks of her being saved)

We felt such a strong bond with her

even from the first time we held her

we knew He called us to be hers.

Well many, many months went by

(practically a year)

with all of us believing that she was ours

free.and.clear.

When she moved into the adoption unit

things REALLY got messy.

(legally)

-MESSED-UP-

And all of a sudden 

(at least from our end)

there was someone who was a threat to keeping our princess forever.

Now, I do not type this lightly.

We were crushed.

We cried.

LOTS

And over the next nine months

our world swirled

seemingly out of control 

and certainly out of OUR control.

Never out of His

NEVER

Court dates...

Weekly visits...

(which brought the princess nightmares)

Meeting after meeting...

All to make sure the princess could stay.

(and I would do it a thousand times over!)

At times it looked like the world

(or the courts)

were against us
(well, not against us - just for the other side)

Many nights I cried out to Him.

KNOWING He had brought her to us.

and KNOWING He was able to fix the situation.

I knew in my heart

but my heart still had fears

I had to continually speak to those fears

and speak His word over my heart and my life.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I want to pause here

because some might think that because I didn't birth her

that our love for her was less.

Those thoughts can not be more wrong.

God placed her in our lives 

as sure as He placed my bio children in my womb.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Well just last week

out of the blue 

(or so it seemed)

Our amazing God flung open the doors

and made a way!

The other party was eliminated

all for His glory...

we receive this amazing blessing from Him

and we can't wait until it is official

and legal

and she will be ours forever....!

Meet the soon (well prayerfully by June) to be:

Gabriella Joy!